blah blah blah....

Why must you tempt me so? And without even trying.


You make it difficult to be good.

i love reno 911. i am never returning danielle's 2nd season to her. dont tell her...

it never gets old.

i love my new hairs cut. now me thinks i should color it too while i'm at it. red or dark dark brown? eh? eh?

2 cents or die!!

i had an awesome dream last night. i was at aaphasab annd it didnt suck. we were at the imperial ballroom in fullerton (which was a speakeasy in the 30's-trust me this tibit of info is part of the story) and the theme of aaphasab was a big ol' speakeasy (see, i told you that info was integral to the dream) cuz management didnt want us to have it anymore. it was so freakin sweet. you needed the password to get in.i think there was a movie shown, but i dont know what it was about because of course even in my dreams im drunk at aaphasab. after the movie, mickey and minnie came out in their fred astaire/ginger rogers attire and did something-again i was drunk. but it was still freakin sweet. then some of our current cast came in dressed like corporate disney with blue id's of course and busted the joint. what a fuckin sweet dream, even if it was a disney dream.

then i woke up. and decided i wont be attednding aaphasab this year

ha ha. yeah right. do they not realize it's a mike wazowski? people got hurt like crazy in it. and the costume is not designed for meet and greet. i say it probly wont happen. lead meetings are homogay, by the way. i think if you are a cross u or a ct you should not have to attend, cuz who cares? you're never around anyway!!!

ozzy needs to be careful, though. i applaud his openess, however, ben reacted so very similiarly to ozzy as he did with me every time i had brought up my point of view or did not agree with him.

and if i cant get on serna's bandwagon, i have to go bye bye from dland. that is my final decision. no more hoping something will come along. i can always rehire (but lets hope i do not!!) if something good comes up. unfortunately, a real world job is no better in the politics areas and unethical work practices and such. so, i think the only place i will be happy when i leave disney is working for a municipality either as a parking control officer or a police services officer (they are a jack of all trades-like me!!)

went to the fair with my kids yesterday. we had a blast. fairs are freakin expensive. i spent a total of $50 and we really didnt do anything!!! ran into ian smith. he still looks at tits while he is talking. and he was sweaty. gross.

went rollerskatin for stephs b'day tonite. that was sooooo much fun. i think i will not be able to walk tomorrow. it was adult nite and it was so interesting to see the kinds of people that go. there were the old dudes that show off their skills and almost kill you when they swerve around you and do their stupid tricks. there are the roller whores who travel in a pack around the floor. theres the jackasses (us) who when its time for backward skating will turn around and very very slowly walk backwards around the rink and play tag( which by the way i highly recommend. its awesome because you lose track on who's it. crazy good time) yay! happy b day steph!! you are even older and gayer!!! ha ha.

i should be sleepin. however, i havent packed for tomorrow yet and my call time is 7 am. gay. annnnd i have no clean clothes so im doin laundry.i should clean my house. hurricane hailey and jake hit again but fuck it. i will do it when i get home!! :)

ooo oh yeah!i sold a couple aprons! i rule!! one had a kickass tiki god print on it and the other had pin up girls. totally cute. working on a new painting too. im a busy little bee.

my jojo sucks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i wish she would DIE!!!!



not really..

i am going to pounce her next set. then im gonna go pounce a certain dca minnie.........

im thinking 'bout the doorbell
when you gonna ring it?
when you gonna ring it?

cant sleep. too much on my mind.

moo.

i dont wanna clean my house.


cleaning is for chumps.


pllllleeeeehhhhhhhh, i say! pleh! pleh! pleh!!!!!!!!!!

hello to the audience i didnt even know i had!!! lurky mc lurks a lot!! I dont even post anything of great interest, soooooo..... yeah. dont really know why you'd read it, but hey, whatever floats your boat, right?

i miss my computer.....

i think i would like to take a vacation. and i would like to go to vegas. i might die if i dont go soon...


work was homogay for the most part, except lunch time and the end of my shift when i wasnt actually working persay... i would have gone to the dance workshop they had, but i wasnt really in the mood for dancin.' i'll have to check out the one on thursday instead.

otherwise, not too much goin' on today. im hungry. i should eat something. and thirsty....terribly thirsty.

then its off to bed for me. im sleepee.

good night, suckers!!

me soo sleepee.

i had a filming this morning to shoot a commercial for the calif. tourism board and it was totally fun. and it was sag so i will make a couple bucks off it. teri hatcher needs to eat. im just sayin. otherwise, she's a pretty ok person. meh, i made her chuckle.

in between that i went to visit the Perlo in frontierland. together we visited the cypress high school band backstage where we ran into brittanie, another chump.

she was like "oh my god! i like saw teri hatcher!"
and i was like "oh my god! did you see anyone else??"
and she was like "i totally saw mickey and minnie!!!"
and i was like "dude, I was that mickey!"
and she was like "oh my god! shut up!"
and i was like "oh my god! i am so serious!"
and she was like "thats like so awesome!"
and i was like " pssssh...yeah, i know!"

ood times. then i went home and slept for an hour and came back to work.

ooooo!! before i left for work something very exciting arrived in the mail. its a sign...... pat walk. (only steph and maybe perlo will get that, so jeff,since you are the only other person that really reads these, youll just have to ask me. its hilarious.)

now i am sitting here at a namm/yamaha event and they have some concert goin' on. sarah mcloughlin, kd lang, natalie cole, and some other peeps are here. but i just want to sleeeep. too bad i am not off until 1 am.

by the way, i dont know why, but sending middle finger pictures totally cracks me up. must be that immature sense of humor of mine people talk about!!!! ha ha



fuck you bee!!

i think thats all ive got......yeah....wait.....yeah, thats it.

jake is so proud. he can count to 11. no, not eleven. i mean one one. i asked him if 12 was one one two. he looked at me like i was stupid and said, "uh..no. that's.... 12, mommy."

so... i havent posted in a little while. lemme bring you up to speed.

working a lot. getting kinda nowhere fixing my money situation. breaking even, ya know? but breaking even isnt cutting it for the plans i have. remember friends, 2006 is the year of change. so it is written, so it is done. here is where i've applied to remedy my situation:

paul frank- customer service rep (meh, if the $$ isnt good, im not going here!)
Tustin PD- property/evidence tech ( nice $$$$!!! but wouldnt get it for almost a year due to background investigation)
City of Huntington Beach- meter repair tech (yeah i know, but dude, check it out-$3500 to start.and i get to be in downtown HB all fricking day. OUTSIDE. in shorts. i can also wear me peircings. and maybe color my hair not quite so disney. most importantly not in an office which i dread terribly. Muffy Vander Snatch does not do well confined to her desk.)
City of Chino P/T K9 Agitator ($25 to be bitten by police dogs. dammit i would kill for this job. this. is. my. new. dream. job. no kidding.)
some company in Newport beach as a human resources cooordinator ( i worry about the amount of computer work. stupid wrists)
Sole- human resources coordinator (again- heavy computer work)

who knows. maybe i will get hired somewhere. maybe i wont. i wont go anywhere if the $$$ isnt WAY better than disney. plus, if things go the way they should for my evil plan, i may stick around for a bit yet. i wont be rushing into anything. i cant screw this up.

oh, i also applied for my son to be a fitting model for Paul Frank. weird, it's like the gig was made just for him. he is the exact measurements they need. it's 2 days a week and a fitting model is just that. they would have him put on the clothes to make sure they fit right. i say if we do that gig me and jake split it 50-50, seeing as i am driving him and ...well...dressing him and such.

extra cash wherever i can get it. pay the bills and save what i can.

g.t.c.o. dont forget. i sure havent. i am lying in wait right now. laying low and taking it day by day. im not taking any bullshit. :)

i have spent a lot of time thinking this week about where my life is going and what i want out of it. im getting closer to something i think. i am definitely a lot more at peace with myself. i have been able to sleep more. not enough yet, but more. there are things that i will have to deal with that are unpleasant and make me sad, but in the end, i will be a stronger person for it. living with pain and hurt is only killing me. and i am just not built to accept defeat. so at some point, it will be ugly again. but not right now. not while i am in limbo. right now i conserve my energy. and wait.

i'm still not all there yet, things are still totally jacked in some areas of my life, but on a good note for once-i am starting to feel like me again, which fucking rocks because i havent been myself for a very long time. maybe even as long as a couple years. again, im just taking it one day at a time. im just enjoying the good times as they come- every second i spend with my kids, every phone call from a friend or sibling, every chance i get to hang with family or friends(which of course isnt all that often-with everyone being so busy, but hey, i take what i can get!!), a great day at work,or just going to the beach.. even the small shit right now like being able to pay a couple bills on time,or a great cup of coffee from starbucks.im just trying so hard to get away from the negativity and focus on the positive. i'm trying.

thank you to those who have been there for me. you fucking rock.

there is so much more i need to write, but alas, i cannot in this forum.


ok. done rambling for now. maybe more later. an update, if you will.

i dont know who fucked up, but when i went to rite aid tonite to pick up my "no babies for me, thanks" pills they said it would be $86. i tried to get them to help me figure out why it was $58 dollars more than normal, but they were less than helpful. "eh, i dont know. it's your insurance" came out of her mouth. i wanted to punch her in her stupid face. i hope they just read it wrong and filled 3 perscriptions instead of reading 3 refills. god, i hope its a mistake, and not some crazy jackassery on cigna's part. note to self: must call cigna first thing in the morning. jerks. having no money really sucks ass.im going to bed.

i have failed steph by not putting many more pics of our party on my flickr page. i deserve a spanking.. or something. therefore, i will remedy this by posting some more glorious pics tomorrow, or perhaps tonight since i probably wont be able to sleep. again.


sometimes, i want to punch people when i work in scheduling. they are fucking retarded. just sayin.

i am getting my hairs cut for sure tonight. unfortunately, i will have to shell out the dough for a swanky cut, but i have to get it cut. have. to. it's touching my neck and i will start punching people if i dont get it off my neck. i'll have to pick up some overtime now, but its worth it.


tra la la la....just wasting time in scheduling, soaking up a little overtime before i go home. im not even pm anymore, someone is covering it. im just looking like i am doing busy work. heh heh heh....

so im serious when i say i have to go to vegas soon. i like that i am broke but i'm still willing to go. ha ha. i am lame.

hailey sang at skool today and it was adorable. she wanted to make sure i would be there, so she reminded me all week. when i dropped her off at skool, she asked if i would wait there til it started. she got all excited when she saw me watching her sing. i guess she didnt see me though when i moved over to get a better picture of her because all of a sudden she had a really disappointed look on her face until she saw me again. then she was happy again. i think they sang about snowmen and Martin Luther King. or something. anyway, it was cute.

anyhoo, thats all i have right now.

dammit. i want some pancakes. now.